memorize everything

Memories of past times and events run through my mind right now. Weird how you never know that you are making memories or which event in the day will be one that sticks around for years. I have a memory of me and my cousins swimming in a pool every summer. An above ground pool that we would all immediately dive into after we got home from elementary school...that memory will never fade. Or the first time I had a crush on a girl and told her... and the first time i got my heart broken. (same day). All these times I didn't know that those very moments would stick with me for many many years...The other day I was eating with my family at a restaurant (ok Taqueria) and I realized that that exact moment would become a one of those memories. I still don't know what it was that made me step out of the moment, but I realized that this moment with my family was perfect and that it was going to be a memory that would be with me forever. It was then that I realized I was conflicted with feelings, sad and contempt, happy yet upset at what was happening, and that it would never happen again. Grateful for a memory like this yet upset that each moment constantly moves forward and never still for a moment. I thought deeper about the events that were unfolding in front of me and began to realize that we would probably all remember this time for many years. I also realized that this memory would not only come during times of joy but times of sorrow. Times when I needed to remind not only myself, but others who can no longer remember what they were like. I'll recall their young faces, what we did and some of the things that they helped me get over by just listening and talking at so many of those simple meals. It's up to me to remind them when they can no longer remember the times like these. This thought is one that I think about regularly.... One memory that I will think back on a year from now, and maybe still be upset....One that I will miss as a aging man reflecting back on my life...Finally a memory that I will love, forever.